I still find myself in a dreamy state far from what I have been anticipating from where I was before. I'm still in a surreal environment not being able to have a foothold on the ground. I find it disapointing to be in this pathetic state that I'm in right now. Nothing has changed since I was back. But still I have to remain optimistic despite the circumstance I find myself at the moment. For I know that things may take a different turn either for the best or for the worst. And I must be ready for what ever outcome it may bring.