Disappointed Me

I still find myself in a dreamy state far from what I have been anticipating from where I was before. I'm still in a surreal environment not being able to have a foothold on the ground. I find it disappointing to be in this pathetic state i am now. This is a nightmare…

Hallelujah

Well I know these times are hard
That People could be stone cold at heart
But you have to stand your ground and be strong, can ya?
Life can be harsh but God is on your side
Faith is what you need over the storm cloud that lies ahead
Bursting with great hope singing hallelujah!
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah

LETTING GO AND MOVING ON...

Two nights ago I observed hundreds of newly hatched baby spiders on my ceiling forming a mosaic of sort. And each night, I see that their numbers are getting fewer and fewer. I just wonder where some of these tiny spiders have gone to. Some might have become part of the food chain perhaps or some might have been lost and clinging to dear life just like any other creature in this world.

As I think deeper seeing some of these tiny spiders spreading out I can’t help but think how life is for each tiny spider. For many life is short but for those who are able to endure and brave the harsh realities of life it can be fulfilling and challenging. A lesson learned from these tiny spiders.

Today, it made me realize that life is about letting go and simply moving on. One cannot dwell and wallow in sorrow and despair, for life isn’t made that way. Life is about moving on, it is about growing, it is dynamic and not static, it is giving oneself an opportunity to change for the better.

EMOTIONAL 14/04/10

Today is an emotional day for me. I just want to be alone.

A Nightmare

I still find myself in a dreamy state far from what I have been anticipating from where I was before. I'm still in a surreal environment not being able to have a foothold on the ground. I find it disappointing to be in this pathetic state i am now. This is a nightmare…

Wednesday 7 april 2010 "me and myself today..."

I don't know whats wrong with me. When I was away it seems to me that coming back would answer my problems and ease away the the pain and difficulties. But it seems that isn't the case. I was lost then and still feeling lost now.

This is me today:

lost
confused
miserable
pathetic
and God only knows what...

No worries... I'm used to it. I will find my way sooner or later...

Welcome the year of the Metal Tiger. Here are some of the interesting insights about me for the year of the Tiger which I have come across the internet for my horoscope.

• Rabbit and Tiger are your lucky animals.
• Years of Rabbit and Tiger are your lucky years.
• Months of Rabbit and Tiger are your lucky Months.
• Spring is your lucky season.
• 3:00 - 7:00 (3 A.M. to 7 A.M.) are your lucky hours.
• Eastern direction is your lucky place.
• It will bring you luck to live a house that faces the east.
• You should choose a bedroom in the east side of the house.
• It's good for you to keep the east side window(s) open.
• When arranging the office desk, you should sit facing the east
• A wooden bed is good for you.
• Your lucky color is green. but wait... I thought it's red now I'm confused...
• Sour foods and vegetables are good for you.
• Take care of your Nervous system, Liver and Gall bladder.

Dear me

Dear me,

I 'm writing this letter to remind myself of how things are at the moment. Things still seem to be at a stand-still. I don't know why but they are. I must ask myself "why things are never different?" "And what must I do to make things better?" I must certainly not going to give up or everything will be at a loss.

Dani

P.S. hang on there....